So, who thinks I’m going to pull off actually coming back to Urban Earthworm and posting consistently? It’s just one of those things – on productive days, I’m so certain that I’m going to stick around and make the blog as enjoyable as it was before, and then on unmotivated days – well, obviously not.
A lot has gone on over the last year, the last few, the last 10. I’ve been diagnosed with Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder, PMDD, which, for me, means that for about 10 days of the month I struggle with serious clinical depression type symptoms. I’ve been able to control it with medication, but it is still a struggle sometimes and it is impossible to explain to someone who is neurotypical what it feels like to want to get things done, to need to get things done and be very worried about the consequences, and yet you just simply can’t.
It’s not “I’m too tired,” or “I don’t feel like it,” or even “I’m sad or overwhelmed.” It’s that I can. not. And over the years I’ve come up with many ways of coping and making up for the time I lose during the bad days, but over the last year or three – with all the other changes in my life – it has been Urban Earthworm that has been sacrificed to the gods of prioritization and PMDD.
This year, I’m going to try to change that. New Year’s Resolutions always feel kitschy and shallow to me, so when I talk about my goals for 2020, I call them goals. But let’s face reality here, they’re New Year’s Resolutions and I’m just being an old millennial hipster by avoiding the term.
I set some goals for this year, and many of them are private. But one of them is to breathe some life back into this blog. Initially, to do that, I suspect I will need to stray somewhat from the original personality of the site. When I started Urban Earthworm, I wanted to keep it on-point and specific to topics related to sustainability for busy families. Having a niche and sticking with a theme is important for a successful blog.
The thing is, though, I don’t need this blog to be “successful” right now. It will mean more to me to simply revive it a bit, and if that means shifting it somewhat from the sustainability focus and diving into a *gasp* mommy blog, then so be it. I’m going to make an effort to identify some primary categories into which most of my posts will fit. I suspect sustainability will remain a popular one, as well as recipes, my ever expanding list of hobbies, parenting, paganism, my family’s life, and yes even some just random spitballing. For instance, one of these days I need to subject the internet to my unpopular but completely accurate opinion of the Star Wars franchise.
So if there’s anyone out there still popping in to say hi, join me on this journey to try – once again, to bring Urban Earthworm back online for 2020.
And HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!